Im in love with this boy and i dont know what to do anymore?

back in september me and my boyfriend broke up and ever since then he showed every single sign he still liked me from staring at me even when i looked back at him to hanging around me talking constently and telling my friends he did. during that time he went out with this girl that didnt even talk to him ( NEVR talked at ALL) and he didnt break up with her because he had told my friend he was trying to get me jealous. i didnt think he liked me bc i was too stupid to follow the signs his friend even asked me if i wanted to get back together with him and i took it as a joke. i didnt know he meant it! anyway he wouldnt ask me out himself because he was afraid i would say no. when everyday i couldnt stop thinking of him ect i was missing him like crazy and still am he was friends with one of my friends and talked about me to her constently ( in a good way ) telling her how he thought he was in love with me. after a couple months of him showing the signs he liked me and stuff i guess he just gave up bc he felt i didnt feel the same way anymore. so we stopped talking yet he still stared at me ALL the time. i did feel the same way he did but i didnt know he did. anyway so there was one time i had broke a bracelet he gave me he bought for 49 dollars because he accused me of a lier ect and i just got really tired and upset of me feeling the way i did about him and this not going anywhere and i didnt want to remember all the old times anymore. he cryed.. told me it broke his heart completely. after that we just went back and forth breaking each others hearts and i think thats what sort of completely killed any chances. but i realized that im IN love with him. and i dont know what to do now. i feel embarrased talking to him but i CANT stop thinking of him EVERYTHING i do reflects him and i cant deal with this i cry so much at night i really want him back but i dont know how to get him back.. any advice plz help i need steps.